Internal Confusion and External Nonsense
Thursday, April 20, 2006
If you're still checking this blog. You should be going to my xanga. www.xanga.com/bonelesssboarder. "Tales of a Tenshi Kaikon" has already started. Go see what you've missing!
Thursday, January 26, 2006
Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating.
My profile name: Bonelessboarder
Monday, August 08, 2005
Your #1 Love Type: ISFP
In love, you feel deeply and experience intense emotions.For you, sex is serious. It's how you best express your feelings.
Overall, you are laid back, warm, and a good listener.However, you tend to seem lazy and disinterested sometimes.
Best matches: ESFJ and ENFJ
Your #2 Love Type: ESFP
In love, you relish every moment and tend to get caught up in passion.For you, sex is how you get in touch with all your senses.
Overall, you are creative, popular, and flexible.However, you tend to dislike criticism and avoid any conflict.
Best matches: ISTJ or ISFJ
Your #3 Love Type: INFP
In love, you crave a long term, harmonious relationship.For you, sex doesn't come quickly - it takes time for you to open up.
Overall, you are supportive, nurturing, and expressive.However, you tend to be shy and protective of your personal space.
Best matches: ENFJ and ESFJ
Your #4 Love Type: ISFJ
In love, you are quietly intense, devoted, and tend too hold on too long.For you, sex is a way to get closer - and a way to take care of your partner.
Overall, you are altruistic and eager to please your sweetie.However, you tend to also be non-confrontational and secretly frustrated with relationship issues.
Best matches: ESTP or ESFP
Your #5 Love Type: ISTP
In love, you are exciting, alluring, and definitely hard to catch.For you, sex is physical and sensual - but not romantic or emotional.
Overall, you are confident, fun, and optimistic.However, you tend to also be flighty and overly private.
Best matches: ESTJ and ENTJ
The Keys to Your Heart
|You are attracted to good manners and elegance.|
|In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell.|
|You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.|
|You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.|
|Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.|
|Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.|
|You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.|
|In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.|
What Are The Keys To Your Heart?
|How You Life Your Life|
You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.
You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.
Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down.
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
As much as I don't like it, I am going to dicontinue using this blog. There are just somethings that I would rather have some people (i.e. my family) not know about. If I do blog, it will be in my secondary blog.
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
Sorry I haven't blogged in a while. I haven't really felt the need to. Sorry if I left anyone hanging. Well, I'm not sure where to start. I suppose I'll start from entry I erased before.
A couple of weeks ago, Tracy said some things to me. She might have been a little out of it, but still she was right. Then after some thinking, I said to myself. You've been depressed for so long for stupid reasons, It's time to change. So I determined to get out of the apartment and do stuff. My depression lingered because I was lonely and sat around doing nothing. (and other reasons of course) I decide to get all the things that were bothering me and either get them fixed or let them go. I'm glad to say that I'm not dying. If anyone was wondering about the secret that I've kept for 4 years, I thought I had cancer. But I finally told my parents about it and got it checked out. The doctor said that it was nothing to worry about. So that's always good. I'll probably get a second opinion on it anyways. The adventure did led to one of the best drinking nights ever. Of course it could of sucked ass but nothing in the world could of ruined that weekend for me. Dan mentioned that he noticed that it was the first time he'd seen me "happy drunk" It felt great. Oh well, while many things were resolved, something still linger with me. But I'm not going to let them bother me too much. Most people already know about the main one. I'm kind of surprised/angry that I told people about it. I didn't think certain people would throw it back in my face like they did. I suppose I was trying to work up the courage to tell people about my secret. Well it didn't help me at all, thanks a lot... In any case, I don't think I really want to date for a while. (Sorry Cassie) Damn, there is so much I want to say right now, but I don't want to hurt people's feelings. Plus it sounds so damn stupid in my head. These thoughts make me feel shallow, but I'm not going to let it bother me. Huh, it seems I've gone back to ignoring my problems to spare mine and others feelings. And that's fine with me.
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
Today is the day. The day I tell them after all this time. I really hope I can do it. I am writing this to make sure that I do. If I delete this entry, then I failed. I must tell them, So I can stop living this lie and let my secret out to everyone.
Monday, February 14, 2005
I am sorry Betsy, for making you worry. I didn't know that you read my blog. True, it is a very depressing blog, but that is cause I write in it more often when I feel down. It helps me feel better to get it out rather then bottle it up. I am not depressed all the time. I've actually been getting better compared to a couple of months ago. Now, about the drinking.... I don't drink because I'm depressed. I drink to have fun and hang out with my friends. When I moved out of the house I wanted to get out and try new things. No one pressured me into it. At home I was kinda sheltered. Don't get me wrong, I love mom and dad and everyone, but I wanted to find myself. I don't know, maybe it was that whole rebel thing or something. Well, I kinda lost my train of thought. I guess what I'm trying to say is not to worry yourself so much, even thought I know you will anyways. I'm doing alright.